hey everyone! I've officially been on gap year for 5 days now! so exciting! our days have been consisting of the following:

-Wake up in a hot tent in the middle of Georgia.

-brush my teeth with a cup as a sink. 

-eat breakfast with my squad.

-study the word! hear sermons, & do squad time & bonding.

-cry my heart out during team time. 

-take a shower in a shipping container

-& take a quick stop at the porta potties. 

This time in Gainesville Georgia is meant to stretch us & grow us before we get on the mission field, but it is so much harder than I thought. right now is a time of total transition. I knew it would be hard, but I was not prepared for how much brokenness would be revealed to me during this time & along with the physical strain of living in a tent. things are a lot more uncomfortable than I thought. I had a moment where I questioned, "Without the way of life i'm used to, who am I? And what is life about?" my good friend trav recommended to read Hebrews 11 & here's what I found:

"The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It's our handle on everything we can't see.'' Hebrews 11:1-2

woah. so good. 

who am I? a child of God. what is life about? Knowing God & living by faith. 

this is the most uncomfortable I've ever been, & I miss my home & family more than life. but i'm discovering my true self more than I ever have before. & more about the Lord & His power more than I ever have. I have no idea what im about to experience, but its not mine to know. 

love you guys! thanks for reading!