hey everyone! I’ve officially been on gap year for 5 days now! so exciting! our days have been consisting of the following:
-Wake up in a hot tent in the middle of Georgia.
-brush my teeth with a cup as a sink.
-eat breakfast with my squad.
-study the word! hear sermons, & do squad time & bonding.
-cry my heart out during team time.
-take a shower in a shipping container
-& take a quick stop at the porta potties.
This time in Gainesville Georgia is meant to stretch us & grow us before we get on the mission field, but it is so much harder than I thought. right now is a time of total transition. I knew it would be hard, but I was not prepared for how much brokenness would be revealed to me during this time & along with the physical strain of living in a tent. things are a lot more uncomfortable than I thought. I had a moment where I questioned, “Without the way of life i’m used to, who am I? And what is life about?” my good friend trav recommended to read Hebrews 11 & here’s what I found:
“The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It’s our handle on everything we can’t see.” Hebrews 11:1-2
woah. so good.
who am I? a child of God. what is life about? Knowing God & living by faith.
this is the most uncomfortable I’ve ever been, & I miss my home & family more than life. but i’m discovering my true self more than I ever have before. & more about the Lord & His power more than I ever have. I have no idea what im about to experience, but its not mine to know.
love you guys! thanks for reading!
proud of you girl!! God is going to work so much through this time & i can’t wait to hear what he does
First that schedule sounds fun (not) haha but so worth it if it means that in the end ur bond with God is tighter. With that yielded heart…what an adventure with ur God this is going to be.
Wow Meadow that was so powerful! I can really tell by your writing that this has been hard for you but the way you have grown in your faith in only 5 days has been amazing! I look forward to hearing more from you soon. This time in our lives is definitely a season of growth for us both. Learning how to live each day without you is hard and I miss you. The house is so quiet without your presence in it. I love you ??
So good meads! i’m so beyond proud of you and all the big steps you’re taking! i cant wait to continue hearing about your growth and your relationship with the Lord!!! ahhhhh I LOVE YOU see you soon babe??????
MEADS!!! GIRL!!! so much is in store!! the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing to the glory that is to be revealed to us
AAAH! proud of u meadow raine! love you lots
Love you! Ah it makes me so happy reading your posts. Definitely shows God has began work in you. Daily devotional time with God is key to growth, I’ve been spending a lot of time in the word and it’s amazing the things God reveals and how near He comes that nothing else in the world seems to matter. Be blessed friend!
meads you are awesome! this verse and your testimony is already so much proof of who God is and what He’s doing through you! your awsome dude
Meadow,
“…but it’s not mine to know.” reveals a huge amount of trust that you have in God! I’m sure that trust is growing day-by-day right now as you give up comforts and control and press in with Him and learn more of who He has made you to be. Keeping all of you in prayer.